I want to thank my creator for allowing me to know even when unknowing. I am grateful to finally be following the knowing. Even though I am struggling and arguing with my higher self or the higher spirit, I still follow.
The other day on the street, something said buy an umbrella. The umbrella was only $2.00. Something said, you forgot your own umbrella. Then I noted, I couldn’t have gotten that big thing in my suitcase anyway. Finally, I reminded myself of Erykah Badu’s “Bag Lady” and told myself I need to stop accumulating things.
Yesterday, I was marveling at how beautiful the weather is in New York, more specifically in Harlem. It’s warm without being humid. There is always a cool breeze. I was thinking how amazing their summer is. I was reminding myself that it’s an island and the water may be the reason it’s so nice. At the same, I was chastising myself for buying that umbrella.
Last night, I put out jeans and socks for my tennis shoes. I’ve been wearing flats or sandals since I arrived. I only wear sneakers on the plane. Cause it gets cold and I’m dragging and lifting.
Today I woke up to racket and wondered if it was finally confirmed that this old building is haunted. Nope, that’s still a question. But it was raining and it was raining hard. I don’t know how I knew it, but I’m grateful for all the ways I was prepared for today.
I am learning to trust my knowing… Yes, I am still questioning it. Questioning is a good place and an evolution. I use to dismiss it without a discussion. Now, I’m actually listening and considering it. I am grateful for this new place of being.